Life updates: the waiting period is a different one for me. Up until this point in my life, everything has been planned out for me: daycare, school, college,. True, I did get a little say-so in the particulars, but stepping out and making big-girl decisions is something new to me. I mean, I can barely pick out which cereal I want to buy at Kroger, nonetheless quickly decide upon a future path.
Fortunately for me, it isn't about my plans as much as it is God's purpose (Proverbs 19:21), and I'm learning to trust in God, Himself to be my security, my consistency.
As a natural people-pleaser, I have always wanted people's approval in what I'm doing. I want a title for it. I want to seem legit. Therefore, a period of just working a minimum wage job at a fast-food joint after college graduation has really humbled me. Does it matter if I have something to present family and friends when they ask "what do you do?": no. Still, it bothers me.
When the Spirit tells me to move (or not), though, I have to know that He won't necessarily give me something explainable in human logic. Let's look at Abraham, Noah, Job, Moses, the disciples, Jesus Himself, and many more. They were obedient to the Father, knowing that they could trust His character, even if they didn't understand the particulars.
Yes, He gave me a brain to use, but He also likes to make me walk out in faith when logic says it would be dumb. So, I will finally swallow my pride (or hopefully kill it once and for all). I can spend this time of not knowing my plans by trusting in God Himself. If only I can grow to know Him more through all of this, it will be well worth it.
